On being dumb

I've been noticing lately how incredibly hard it has become to do normal day to day tasks.  I often wonder, is this the new me?  Or one day, when these children are less dependant on me, will my brains return to semi-functioning?  I can't seem to remember any basic task unless it is written down ON my hand, put on my calendar and put in my phone WITH an alarm, and only then I might remember to accomplish this said task...maybe.

I keep making promises and breaking them.  It makes me feel like a jerk, but I mean, they're really very simple things- to bring something, to mail something, to get something from the store, to forward an email, to relay a message.  If I told you I would do something of the sort, I have more than likely made a liar of myself.   So let me just tell you now, I am sorry, I will have the best intentions, but it more than likely won't happen.

I mean, both these kids are both SO incapable of doing hardly anything themselves.  Vi is getting there, but she is SLOW as molasses.  And even after you clothe them, and clean them and give them some form of entertainment, you can't actually do anything else.  They know if  you do.  Try to cook or clean?  NO, forget it, they will go straight for the one thing they can find to try to kill themselves.  Zeke is at the fun age where he has developed absurdly fast mobility with zero understanding of cause and effect or basic comprehension of the world around him.  At least once a day I feel the floor vibrate with the thud of his head hitting the floor.

Climbing on his sisters bed, which he fell off of the day before and hit his head. 

While trying to make dinner tonight, I set up a play tent for Vi, and got a few toys out for Zeke.  Zeke was convinced I was just trying to distract him from the fact that I must be trying to starve him to death, and insteads latches himself to my leg bawling hysterically.  Soon after Vi comes in saying, "Look! Hello Kitty is a shephard!" and somehow found a blue wrapper off of a pad and stuck it on the head of her doll.   .........

That was just one meal, nevermind that they eat every 3 hours in the day.   I swear everytime I blink it's time to feed them again... why do they have to eat so freaking much?  I know half of the time it's just snacks and bottles, but I have to remember to do it.

I made him grilled parmesan chicken with rice and he acted disgusted.  I quit cooking.   

I am amazed at Zeke's power crawl to the bathroom if ever we forget to close the door.  I'm amazed at Vi's ability to climb up in my lap and into my face no matter where I am at.  They're amazing, and believe me I appreciate that.

Don't even get me started on the dogs on top of everything else.

So all that to say, here's to hoping that one day my brain returns to halfway functioning.

Vi turning 3

It's that time of year again...

The week before Vi's birthday...and she is turning 3!

I have a feeling that I'll say this every year...but...whoa.

Last year was looking back and realizing that my baby was now a toddler.  This year she became more into her own self. We are all starting to see more of who she is becoming.  She's smart, she's funny, she's an explorer, she's a princess, she's a daydreamer, she's a conqueror, and an artist.

funny girl

day dreamer

Conqueror

artist

Explorer

This year was a year of Genevieve exploring more of the world around her, and watching and loving her responses of awe, or of sheer joy, of experiencing fear, and overcoming it (or not in cases of say...the vacuum).  A year of questions.  She started school this year, and as she is exploring the world around her, her teachers can attest to how this girl is just full of SO many questions.  Who, What, Where, When, How...and most often...WHY?

She is strong-willed, a trait that often gets her in trouble, but the trait of a strong woman and leader in the making.  Yet, she's also sensitive, and although at times a crying toddler can get old, I also see the strength of a tender heart showing through.

Battle of the wills- also the same night she tried to outsmart me to get up from the dinner table. 

Sensitive...and tender hearted.

She wants to be kind and gentle, a trait I've most enjoyed seeing with her buddy from school and her little brother.  Those are the two traits she's decided she wants to possess - like Cinderella.  She also claims to be humble,(also from Cinderella) but I believe we might still be working on that one. Her wit is charming and leaves most people in laughter.  She brings joy to almost everyone she meets, but most of all to us.

 I don't know how to really wrap this up, Vi is turning 3 (ok, so I did this a little more than a week early, but next weekend is crazy busy!) and it's amazing, crazy, and going entirely too fast.   The End.

Coming soon...Zeke turning 1...